Tuesday, June 26, 2007

A prisoner once again

Why is it that being admitted to the hospital feels like being imprisoned? Not that I've been to prison, but still...the similarities seem striking.

We met with my doctor this morning after consulting with multiple other hospitals and doctors. I was admitted around noon to the sixth floor and will begin chemo either tonight or tomorrow. We decided to do the FLAG therapy, and we're still debating about whether or not to use mylotarg along with it. (Leaning against it per advice from Sloan-Kettering and some other "big" institutions.) In the meantime I'm headed downstairs for a MUGGA test to make sure my heart can handle idarubacin and will most likely have my central line pulled and replaced.

It's hard to be here again, and there are a lot of emotions. My room is without much of a view, but thankfully there is a courtyard several floors down that I can gaze down upon, so it's not all brick walls staring back at me. I miss my Gary, but I am fighting for him.

Please pray for endurance.

20 comments:

Anonymous said...

Go, go Amy. I am sending strength and patience to you through prayer. I wish I could do more but for now, all I can do is hold your family in my heart, so I am.
Thanks for the post.

Paulette said...

Came by as eager to hear how you are. I am right here with you, and will pray for you deeply even in the midst of my day. I know you seem alone in this fight but you are not. God has put some amazing people in your path to intercede for you Amy.
I cannot imagine being there fighting for your life, it just seems so unfair as I sit here relatively healthy.But I do know that we all suffer in different ways and I am so thankful God makes a way for us to indure it.
I do know the abuse I suffered at the hands of my parents, there were many many times where I did not believe I would make it to a new day,this isn't about me I know, but he can make a way where it seems impossible at times. I know God does perform miracles Amy and that is why I fight so hard to pray for you and plead for you to continue on to raise your baby. I know God hears and I pray he comforts you each new day.
I am praying and will never stop.

Monica C. said...

Oh, Amy. You are in my deepest and constant prayers. I pray that you would feel the warmth and strength of our most gracious and merciful God wrapped around you at all times!

Here is a website I found which lists various treatment methods for AML, including those considered "experimental". I pray that it blesses you in a tremendous way:

http://asheducationbook.hematologylibrary.org/cgi/content/full/2000/1/69

Anonymous said...

Praying for you. Praying for healing, strength, hope, faith, and a daily experience of the nearness of God. Praying for peace in your soul, and endurance for the road that God has put before you.

With love,
Amy (a prayer partner in MD)

Leslie said...

We've faithfully prayed for you for almost a year now. It's like you're part of the family. We love you and will keep on praying for a miracle! Grace and comfort in the Lord to you, Amy!!

Pam said...

Keep on fighting Amy - I'm praying daily for your miracle. This world needs more warriors like you.

Anonymous said...

I'm glad you are keeping us so up to date on your days. I am praying for you and for your healing and strength to endure. Keep fighting and stay in the Word.

Patty

lightshines said...

I am so sorry Amy. I know this is not where you want to be. You have my prayers.

Amber D.M. said...

Hugs, love and prayers as always. May the Lord be with you as you face this next round of treatment.

~ Amber

Colleen said...

Still praying, Sweetie! We love you!!

Colleen for All

Anonymous said...

as the hymn says (going along with your title for this post), "Imprison me within Thine arms, and strong shall be my hand."

Anonymous said...

Keep fighting Amy! You are never a prisoner when you are FREE in God's love.

Wendy said...

Your name is on our refrigerator. We are praying for you. We have prayed for you for almost a year as well. You are such an encouragement to so many people.

Happymama said...

Keep fighting, Amy! We're praying for you!!

~Kristi

Anonymous said...

In total agreement with the comparison to jails/hospitals. It is a physical acknowledgment of the disease you are fighting. Amy we are praying for you and we will continue. Alivia's grandma Gigi

Abbi said...

I will be praying for you! This post strikes such a chord with me, I don't know why. I've never posted, but I have followed your story, for a little while now.

Keep fighting for your little man and trusting in the Lord for strength each day. I'm praying for you.

Dunn Family said...

Keep fighting Amy!! We are all standing in the gap for you. Do not give up. Do not fear. The Lord is still in the business of miracles. He still does things that confound the minds of doctors.

Love you,
Gina

Rocks In My Dryer said...

Yes, Amy, praying!

Anonymous said...

Still praying for you, Amy!

Laurie

Amy K said...

From an old cheerleader, "Go, Fight, WIN"! I'm cheering for you (and praying, too)!