I love C.H. Spurgeon. It seems he never fails to provide wisdom for whatever I am struggling with on any particular day. This is today's entry from Faith's Checkbook:
For, lo, I will command, and I will sift the house of Israel among all sections, like as corn is sifted in a sieve, yet shall not the least grain fall upon the earth. (Amos 9:9)
The sifting process is going on still. Wherever we go, we are still being winnowed and sifted. In all countries God's people are being tried "like as corn is sifted in a sieve." Sometimes the devil holds the sieve and tosses us up and down at a great rate, with the earnest desire to get rid of us forever. Unbelief is not slow to agitate our heart and mind with its restless fears. The world lends a willing hand at the same process and shakes us to the right and to the left with great vigor. Worst of all, the church, so largely apostate as it is, comes in to give a more furious force to the sifting process.
Well, well! Let it go on. Thus is the chaff severed from the wheat. Thus is the wheat delivered from dust and chaff. And how great is the mercy which comes to us in the text, "Yet shall not the least grain fall upon the earth"! All shall be preserved that is good, true, gracious. Not one of the least of believers lose anything worth calling a loss. We shall be so kept in the sifting that it shall be a real gain to us through Christ Jesus.
I especially like the line, "Not one of the least of believers lose anything worth calling a loss." It is easy in the midst of all of this to pile up my "losses" -- most specifically in my mind, time as a wife and mother. So this was a good check for me today.
One day Brandon and I were talking and I got all excited when I realized if the Lord does choose to take me home soon (and ultimately, whenever), I may get to see my grandma again, and meet the siblings my mom miscarried, and meet Brandon's dad who died when Brandon was young, and then I thought of people like Spurgeon and the giants of the faith, and Paul! And Jesus. It's actually really exciting. I know I don't understand exactly how heaven works, but I know it will be glory, and having that to look forward to is really all that makes this life worthwhile.