Thank you all so much for praying for me over the past few days, especially relating to the MRI. I was really nervous about it, but ended up having a lot of peace and it was over before I knew it. (I think the Ativan helped as well.) They let me see the scans afterwards which I found very interesting. The results were back this morning and everything is normal. They have been trying to find the source of my fevers, and the main reason they ordered the MRI was to check once again for fungus.
I received two units of blood yesterday, so my energy is up today. It's all relative -- I'm still really weak and tired. This past week has been harder on me than the second round of chemo was. I am still receiving Neupogen shots to help my bone marrow rebuild, and today it showed signs of working -- my white count is at 500. I think the doctor said that's the first time it's been 500 (or above) since July 27th. So that's a big praise -- things are heading in the right direction. My neutrophils are still at zero, so they are still restricting visitors and I can't see Gary. I miss the little guy. The kids (my siblings) and Brandon taped about a half hour of footage on our camcorder, so that was fun to watch this morning.
I remembered a few days ago that I could listen to Scripture at Oneplace.com. They have selections from the KJV, and since I've been too sick to read, it's been very relaxing to me to just listen. I also discovered they have old sermons by Charles Spurgeon, among others. I find his writings very encouraging, so having the opportunity to listen to some of his sermons is a blessing.
The first book I listened to was Hebrews. The following caught my ear especially:
"For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are nailed and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and grace to help in time of need." -- Hebrews 4:12-16
I found Hebrews to be fascinating. I've been thinking a lot about the people of the Old Testament whose names are mentioned in Hebrews 11. Such incredible faith, and they did not even know about Jesus Christ -- they only had the promise, and they held tight to that. My faith is so weak, but thankfully His grace is that much stronger.